Million Loves

"I've fallen in love
A million times.

But I've fallen out
A million and one."

Two Full Time

I live my life on company time.
Sold my soul for the company dime.
All work now, no play?
What would dear Jack say?

Steve

Say what you want,
Do what you dare.
I knew that you'd never
"Always be there."

New Shoes

Sometimes a new pair of shoes 
Is only a new pair of shoes. 
Sometimes it's a new horizon 
And a reason to keep on walking.

Staring Back

March 18, 2017

6:58am - at the end of a long graveyard shift.

Every week is the same.
Every single week is the same.
Five days a week I hate my name.

I hate my life and
What I've become.
I can't stand the mirror anymore. There's no life left
Behind those eyes that once
Saw beauty in all things.

There's only fear, hunger and pain.
I'm living a hollow version
Of what most people would call
An
Empty
Existence.

I'm spiraling out of control,
Darker and deeper
With every turn,
Every loss,
Every failure.

I'm not who I once was.
I'm cold
I'm tired
I'm hungry
I'm empty
It seems the only thing I'm not....
Is me.

Panhandle

I'm considering taking on a second job 

As a pan handler. 

The hours work well 

With my primary job,
And from what I understand, 

The pay is a lot better 

Than what I'm currently making
While working my tail end off. 

However, 

Most pan handlers I see 

Are more overweight than I am. 

I may have to gain a few lbs.

Sir

Sir, 

Do you ever get tired of 

People working so hard 

To kiss your backside 

That they end up with sore knees 

And chapped lips? 

Sir,

It seems to me 

An awful lot of people
Work exceptionally hard

For long hours specifically to 

Hide shit from you.